Thursday, December 17, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
Crazy Girl Column
Is anyone out there worried? Well I am. Here I am a junior, about to be a senior and I have got nothing. I don't have any real career prospects; no money, no idea of what lies ahead and most alarmingly, I don't even have a boyfriend! Isn't college the time when you are supposed to meet "The One"?
You know the soul mate that you know better than anyone does and can't wait to spend the rest of your life with? Well, my time is running out and to tell you the truth, I am not ready for any of that! I can't even manage to find someone that I want to spend a week with let alone the rest of my life! It becomes painfully evident that my situation isn't the norm as I see my closest friends pairing off and talking in stupid cuddly voices about the future and marriage and babies and all that stuff. I feel like I am missing something, like everyone is following this unwritten plan and I am sitting here wondering what it is I am supposed to do!
I do realize that there is a female stereotype; one that says that women just want to rope in the perfect man and have lots of babies and change the guy into some sort of dutiful husband type, but in a lot of cases that isn't true. Some girls just want a guy to watch movies with on Sunday nights, drink a few beers on the weekends, and tell us we are cute once in a while. Honestly, is that too much to ask? We're not asking for perfection, just a nice-looking guy that can make us laugh.
Maybe it is all of those crappy teenybopper movies that I watch. Honestly, I can't get enough of those loose Shakespearean adaptations. It seems like they make the whole situation worse. The kids in these movies are in high school and they're already finding perfect relationships and living out these dramatic adult scenarios between home-ec. and gym class. I am one year away from scholastic independence and I am miles away from any relationship that could be classified as adult.
Maybe I should go to law school or something. I test well, and who knows, maybe I could rip up the LSAT. Then I would have a few more years to find "The One". As it is, there is too much pressure. I seem to be drawing from the wrong places. I swear that I am the dream girl for the under 18, over 40 club. If there is a scary old drunken man with-in a quarter mile, it is almost a guarantee that he'll hit on me. Its like I am wearing a sign that says, "hey if you are older than my dad, please hit on me!" I must be doing something wrong.
Most of the single women I know just want to meet someone. It doesn't even have to be the right one. I am not interested in rushing things. I am having a good time--I just wish that there was some way to alleviate the pressure. Each day without a date seems like another day in the "you're gonna spend your life alone club." I want to curl up and hide myself from the judgmental eyes of those stupid girls that talk about their boyfriends all the time. The ones who ask you if you are dating anyone, and tell you it's okay that you aren't. Damn right it's okay! I know it's okay! Just because my parents were dating by this time in their lives and some of my friends parents were already married with a kid is no reason to become alarmed! Just because I am now the 2nd oldest unmarried person in my family doesn't mean I am worried about it.-(sarcasm) With all my whining you might think that I am dying for a serious relationship so that I can grip onto some poor unsuspecting guy and never let him go. I assure you, this is not the case. I think that it's the same with a lot of girls my age. Most of us are just waiting; waiting for something to happen, because this quasi-life we call college can't last forever. And because deep down we are ready for something new.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
I can’t believe I am a Mean Girl!
It was 6am, and I was sitting at the train station waiting for my train to arrive. I had just hosted 8 guests in my house for 3 days and I was exhausted. I am staring through the clear glass door to the station when I see a girl approaching with her bike. She parks it directly in front of the glass doors and is getting ready to enter the station. I know that the train is due to arrive any minute and she is blocking the exit that everyone will be rushing through in mere moments. I just kept thinking about how it was so unbelievable that someone would put their bike there, oblivious to the nuisance and inconvenience it would be to so many other people? How could someone be so thick and self involved? So what did I do? Did I approach her and tell her that it was not a smart place to park her bike? No- but that is what I should have done- Or perhaps I could have squeezed through the door and avoided the moronic parking job. I did not do either of those things. I simply walked through the door as I would normally. Knowing fully that it would knock her bike over…and it did! As soon as it happened, I felt terrible! I could not imagine why I had done such a thing! Why was I so angry? To make matters worse everything came flying out of her stupid side baskets- water bottles, locks, chains, coils- you name it! I felt so terrible that I was running around grabbing her things and loading them back into her baskets. I just kept repeating Sorry! I am so sorry! Really I am so sorry! I am sure she thought I was a freak and did not even suspect that I was one of those awful MEAN GIRLS!
I still cringe when I think about it….
Friday, June 19, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
I hope they get it back up and running and that everybody gets what they want. I think I am over it. Although that tunic might be perfect for post baby mid-section coverage! Alas- if I ever want to stay at home- we need to save… so I will be going without. Boo.
Monday, June 8, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
After my salon time, we went to The Mall that Time Forgot . Big Guy wanted to take me to a jewelry store that happened to be in this location--Picture a mall that the Golden Girls would go to on their show- palm trees, stores called “Madame Bonjour”, and “Smart and Sophisticated Fashions for Women,” A man on a keyboard playing Dancing Queen…..seriously, it was so strange- even the lighting seemed fake and Golden Girls-y. Also, I hated everything that they showed me in the jewelry store- it was all very trashy looking. BUT on the upside- there was a Deli in the mall- it looked like a little grocery store stuck in the wall- very out of place- and it was like a little Italian market with a butcher, a sandwich counter, gelato, and fresh pasta and bread and cookies- it was so cute. We got lunch and sat near the keyboard man and enjoyed some slow jams.
Then Big Guy took me on a surprise outing to play Skee Ball! It was 10 cents to play and we bought a $3.00 bag of nickels- that is like 15 games each. It was really fun. We thought we were being so cool because we were going to give our tickets to this kid that was really nice and cute (he showed us how to play one of the games and was adorable- saying things like "this is a really great game!”) and when we went to give him our measly 200 tickets- we saw that he had a stack of about 3,000- we felt a little silly.
That night our friends A and D came over and we walked to a pub near our house with the babies (they have a baby the same age as H- they were born in the same hospital 2 days apart) We sat on the patio and had a beer and some mussels and curry fries and then walked back home and made pizzas.
The next day we went to play bocce ball indoors and A and D surprised me and showed up to play with us- it was a really fun weekend.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
After my daycare, train pass, bus pass, parking pass, etc, I really only have like $800 left from my paycheck. This working thing is just not working....
I keep seeing all these cute new clothes coming out from J. Crew but I have neither funds nor figure for it all.
My sweet baby H was sleeping when I left this morning so I didn't get to kiss him goodbye. I should have done so when I was feeding him at 5am, but I was too delirious to think of it.
My house is a disaster area...I have no time/energy to clean it and my husband isn't much of a self-starter when it comes to cleaning. The Laundry is piling up- both clean and dirty, I am pretty sure there are bras in my couch and I keep finding ants in my dishwasher!-yuck.
My garden hates me. I planted herbs-rosemary, thyme, cilantro, basil, marjoram, arugula, Boston lettuce, eggplant, tomato and spring onion and none of it seems to be doing anything at all. I had visions of fresh organic produce all summer long--caprese salads plucked from my porch--free and fresh vegetables piled on my counter tops. I am not sure how long I should wait before I start over- I see some green, but not much.
I am such a downer.....being away from H has sucked the life out of me. I gotta snap out of this.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I hope you all had good days today- I can't wait to get home and kiss my baby.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
I will be so sad all day! I feel like I am having so much fun and I just LIVE for H's little smiles and giggles and the new things he learns every day- and not I am going to miss all of his fun stuff while I sit in a desk all day. I hate this. We should have bought some crappy house so I could afford to stay home! uggghhh.
On a happy note- I just had my house cleaned by Molly Maids and it looks awesome. That was a great gift for a new mom!!!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
I made these for Baby H...
and the rest we made for my friend's baby girl, Juliette, who is due in July.
p.s.- My husband asked me to create the neck tie onesie and he just told me RIGHT NOW that he copied the idea from Jen (J. Moments). Sorry Jen! Imitation is the most sincere form of flattery!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Plus I have no idea, and no clothes that are appropriate to dress this new FAT middle that I have going on. I know I need to be patient, but this is going much too slowly for my sanity!
I thought breast feeding was supposed to melt off my pounds. I lost 30 lbs of water in the first two weeks, but I feel like I haven't made any progress since! Any tips for me?
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
pretty Botanical Gardens- the pond with ducks
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
The whole show is pretty cute and makes me really anxious for spring...and anxious for my figure to come back!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Maybe this is crazy, but I thought I would throw it out there- you could also suggest something that you have been looking for. Maybe I have one that I would trade!
Have I been home so long that I am going crazy? Maybe I should just look on Craigslist- seems gross for food items though.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
2. I tried to make a cake for Big Guy's birthday, but It seemed a little too daunting- I just couldn't bear to mess up the kitchen- and I seemed to be missing ingredients from each recipe that I found. I feel a little average today- instead of the supermom I would LIKE to be.
3. I ate a whole bar of chocolate today...plus pasta with meat sauce...FOR BREAKFAST.
4. H puked on me about 8 times today...and I didn't really change my shirt....hmmmm.
5. I am very excited because I am planning a trip in April. H and I are going to the beach to hang out with my parents!
6. I just put H in the outfit that Big Guy wore as a baby when he came home from the hospital. I thought it would be a sweet gesture for Big Guys Birthday- I hope he likes it!
7. I am making Duck with Black currant sauce for dinner- a favorite of Big Guy's. I am excited to surprise him since he thinks we are having a pizza casserole that we have in the freezer.
8. This morning I thought that there was an explosion in my neighborhood. The whole house shook- I was pretty close to diving under the bed with the baby. I got up and opened the blinds fully expecting things to be on fire....apparently my memory has suffered- because I guess I forgot what thunder sounds like. In my defense- it was really LOUD!
9. A good friend called today to line up a playdate/lunch date for tomorrow. I am excited to get out and interact with the world beyond starbucks and the grocery store. I am also excited that our babies have already hung out a few times and they are both only three weeks old- I hope they get to become friends!
10. It is 7:30 and I am still in my pajamas....Maybe there should have been a shower and outfit change somewhere in my day. Trying to avoid the whole haggard wife look- and I am not sure that I did that today. Oops.
Monday, February 23, 2009
These past two weeks have been really challenging with my health issues and the lack of sleep and the rushed trips to the pediatrician and all of the craziness that comes with having a baby and also having your body completely give out on you--but I am on the road to recovery. I was diagnosed with a condition called PUPPS which is rarely manifested after pregnancy, but I am always a science project when it comes to my health, so it doesn't surprise me. From what I understand, it all relates to my body trying to process and recover and not being able to handle the 30 lbs of water weight that I lost in the first two weeks. My stomach was so tight due to a lot of amniotic fluid that it burst into a crazy and very itchy case of hives that spread all up and down my arms and legs. It was so wicked and angry that it prompted a dermatologist to take pictures of it! Embarrassing.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
We are so glad to have our baby H home, and we are spending our days getting to know him! He loves to cuddle and be bundled up all snug in his soft blankets. He loves being swaddled by his dad and he LOVES to eat, if he is crying- chances are he is hungry.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Wish me luck- I am a little nervous, but Big Guy is here taking care of me and the nurses and midwives and residents seem very nice. My IV kinda sucks- I didn't realize I would be so aware of it sticking in my hand, but I am sure that soon it will be the least of my worries.
I hope everything goes well, and I hope to have good news to report some time in the near-ish future!
Monday, February 2, 2009
One time I had a very vivid dream about having a baby that grew at an incredible rate- the worst part was carrying around this really tall man-baby who inexplicably wore bad khakis and sweater vests. Odd...
Right now I feel like I am just clock-watching, waiting for something to happen. I am trying to enjoy the calm and quiet- but that is easier said than done!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I am really looking forward to tonight. We are going to dinner for an early birthday celebration for Big Guy. He is so funny. He figured we would all be busy with baby once his birthday came around at the end of February, and his parents are going on a trip, so he casually suggested to his family that we have dinner together to celebrate. I visited the restaurant last weekend and really liked it, so I am excited to go back. I will let you know how my second experience goes- I really like to give credit where it is due for great service and great food.
Today I am feeling less than inspired like many of my blog friends, but i wanted to post about something so that people didn't wonder if I was having the baby! I can't wait for this week to end! I can't believe I have to work again tomorrow. At least some friends of mine are taking me to lunch as a sort of send off before the baby- I think we are hitting Nordstrom Cafe for some soup, salad and scones! Do you like how everything I talk about keeps coming back to food?
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Since it is a female owned business, and that female happens to be related to me, I am more than excited to support her new venture. If you visit the site and see something you like- let me know just for fun- and if you decide to buy- tell her that her cousin in the Windy City sent you!!
Monday, January 26, 2009
For the Monitor- I was at a loss- so Big Guy Picked one...cross your fingers. Hopefully if it is terrible, we can exchange it.
We also picked a bunch of things that will hopefully entertain, stimulate and/or soothe the baby. All of this stuff adds up! We have so much baby gear! We settled on the Diaper Dekor as a diaper pail. I didn't want one that needed special refills, but I read that the Diaper Champ smelled like poo, so I had to choose this one.
We received the Evenflow exer-saucer as a gift.
We picked up the fisher price rain forest bouncy chair this weekend- my first selfless act of motherhood. I HATE the look of this thing, but I have heard from so many people that their babies LOVE it, so I made myself get over the fact that it is the ugliest thing I have ever seen.
Seriously...I hate it. I hope the baby loves it.
For the swing, I was convinced I needed to pick another hideous monstrosity- and this one was going to cost around $200. In the end we made a game-time gamble and chose the Graco portable car seat adaptable swing. This has the same muti-speed functionality, music and ambient noise features as the other models, but it isn't enormous and I can move it from room to room. I might have to put a mobile on it or something- Not sure if they care about them in the swing or if they mainly fall asleep- I suppose I will find out if our gamble pays off.
Our baby bath choice was the Summer Infant Bath
My Diaper bag is a Skip Hop- mostly because I HATED everything on the market, and people said this one was nice.
We also got a Baby Einstein Neptune Ocean Play-Gym- Big Guy set this up last night and was actually laying IN it..I think he liked it a little too much.
Plus we finally picked a couple options for going home outfits which is a relief! And we grabbed some Dr. Brown's BPA-free bottles because we heard they were good.
We still need to get a mattress for the bassinet that my grandfather built. It was modeled it after one that my aunt saw in a catalogue when she was pregnant and it got passed to us. It is special to us because he made it, and we plan to use it in our bedroom until we can bear to move the baby to the nursery.
That is all I can think of for now- I know we have purchased a million other things- because they are all over my house and basement. We are so excited about welcoming our little bundle and i can't wait to share the news! I hope this was helpful- feel free to ask any questions about why I chose something- I am happy to share!